Tomorrow, I’m heading to the doctor to find out what’s right with me.
There’s a temptation to use the phrase what’s wrong with me, but it strikes me as inaccurate because I know that my path is my path. Whatever bumps or obstacles or detours that I encounter exist as opportunities for me to learn and grow.
My path is perfect, and there is no gap between how today is and how today should be.
I promised to keep you up-to-date. Tomorrow, I’m going to be meeting with a doctor for my pre-colonoscopy consultation. In another week or two, I’ll be getting a colonoscopy so that the doctors can identify whatever it is. As I mentioned before, there’s a possibility that it is colon cancer – and so I have been mentally preparing myself for that prospect.
In the meantime, I feel perfectly fine. In fact, I broke a personal record on the treadmill today (4 miles in 25 minutes and 28 seconds). I am completely comfortable and have no discomfort in my body.
I have made the choice to perceive this medical expedition as an adventure – perhaps even a treasure hunt! I don’t know what will come around the corner or the next bend in the river, but I have high hopes of finding something of great value on this odyssey.
And so, fellow adventurers, onward we march!
November 22, 2009 at 12:05 pm
The prayers and well wishes of all of us are with you. Caught early, colon cancer is very treatable. We all love you very much and support you.
November 22, 2009 at 12:06 pm
I really hope you’ll be alright! Good luck! x
November 22, 2009 at 12:16 pm
I feel you, Davey.
I have been in the same situation earlier this year.
Two colonoscopies later, It was just an infection and food intolerances.
I’m sure the best will come to your path and nothing will turn off your enlightment!
You are a special soul!!
Don’t forget this.
Besos
November 22, 2009 at 12:16 pm
I feel you, Davey.
I have been in the same situation earlier this year.
Two colonoscopies later, It was just an infection and food intolerances.
I’m sure the best will come to your path and nothing will turn off your enlightment!
You are a special soul!!
Don’t forget this.
Feel hugged!
Besos
November 22, 2009 at 12:27 pm
my best wishes are with you Davey!! i cant imagen how anyone could feel hearing the news that they might have colon cancer is it sound very scairy!!! how ever i do belive if you have storng will for live and the world around you can get through the anything!!
i myself when thourgh four years of pain, and at one point look like i could of die with my crohns disease ( all be it prop not as bad as cancer) but the point is i understand what Davey mines when he says its something you have to go thourh, as it charge my outlook on mylife for the better, and if them four bad years make 8 really good aewsome years it would be worth it going though!!
stay your wonderful possive self Davey, YOU CAN OVER COME ANYTHING, my parys to that universe out there will be with you always x
November 22, 2009 at 12:28 pm
Davey,
Sending all good vibes your way for your appt. You provide so much uplifting advice for people and you will be getting lots of positivity back from your readers!
November 22, 2009 at 12:29 pm
I love you Davey. You are and have been inky prayers since you told us all. I will be thinking about you tomorrow especially !
Live strong my blog buddy! You are loved.
November 22, 2009 at 12:33 pm
Im KNOWING with you that all is perfect and right with you in your body and your experience. Love & Light my brother. Namaste.
November 22, 2009 at 1:04 pm
Good Luck –
I think you’re just going through a similar experience I had at your age. Blood in the stools. 99% of the time it’s either hemorrhoids or anal fissures. Doctors want to do a colonoscopy to rule out the possibility of another cause, and mainly because they could get sued if they didn’t, and it turned out to be cancer. (Really a rectal exam would say the same thing, but we live in a litigious society).
Also, it could be internal anal warts that bleed. Which is another issue. Almost all sexually active gay men will become infected with the HPV virus. If you are a young gay guy, still a virgin, do yourself a big favor and the GET THE HPV VACCINE. (caps are intentional) This will greatly reduce your risk of future of having an outbreak of anal warts, and maybe even anal cancer. This is no joke, it’s your life.
Also, the rates of Hepatitis B within the gay community is also very high, GET THE HEP B VACCINE.
Sorry to be preachy, but these things are easy to do, and can save you a world of hurt down the road.
November 22, 2009 at 1:10 pm
ps — I wasn’t implying that Dave is still a virgin.
It’s for the rest of you guys out there.
again — good luck to you Dave.
November 23, 2009 at 1:13 pm
Davey not still a virgin? I am CRUSHED! (JK)
November 24, 2009 at 4:46 am
Hi..
This is not a message of hostility… just one for clarification…
Maybe it was just semantics, maybe you actually think this… but I thought I should step in and say that Drs want to do a colonoscopy NOT “mainly because they could get sued if they didn’t”… rather, they do it because they care for the human lives for which they are responsible and want to make sure that they don’t miss something that could end the lives of their patients prematurely, and tragically with a great deal of suffering.
Here’s to happiness good health!
November 22, 2009 at 1:05 pm
LOVE
LOVE
LOVE
to you, David.
I feel with you,
you will be in my thoughts tomorrow.
Gabriele
November 22, 2009 at 1:52 pm
Above all you are continuing to take an aggressive stance on your health. Good news or bad, knowing now rather than later gives you opportunities and options that waiting would withhold.
My thoughts are with you!
And the colonoscopy procedure is interesting in of itself.
Mike
November 22, 2009 at 2:05 pm
good luck my prayers and thoughts are with you. keep the fauth
November 22, 2009 at 3:24 pm
Hey, Davey – staying calm is a big part of dealing with your unknown future, and I think you’re good at that. And it’s important to share the situation with at least one other person you trust, and you’ve done way more than that. I recently had a health scare – I was having pain in the right side of my scrotal sac, and the doctor thought he felt a small mass there – the look on his face alone scared the hell out of me. He scheduled an ultra sound exam at the hospital for a few days later. I did a lot of praying, and I kept working, stayed calm, and shared my fears with my husband. A few days later I had the ultra sound, and everything was clear – turns out I had strained a muscle from doing sit-ups. I hope your difficulty turns out to be something as simple. But whatever it is, please know that we’re all on your side, praying for you, sending our love your way, and wishing you the very best outcome. Sincerely, Jordan
November 22, 2009 at 5:20 pm
Colonoscopy!!! To dedramatize I would like put a little kiss on your bums to comfort them in case it hurts!
I hope all will be fine for you David, tomorrow and the next weeks!!!!
bye,
November 22, 2009 at 6:17 pm
Your spirituality is encouraging and inspirational. Not to mention, you are a pretty rad guy. Best of luck!
November 22, 2009 at 6:49 pm
GO Davey! (:
Here’s wishing ya all the best!
November 22, 2009 at 7:24 pm
Knowledge is power. The test information will allow you to move forward. I am glad you are being proactive. More men should be! Five in my family have gone through this. I am here for you.
November 22, 2009 at 7:34 pm
Good luck. I hope it turns out OK..
November 22, 2009 at 7:41 pm
…adding my best wishes and positive thoughts
November 22, 2009 at 8:30 pm
Hi Davey,
Hope all goes well for you with your examination. I went thought a similar experience earlier in the year and everything turned out ok. I’m sure the same will happen to you.
My thoughts and best wishes go with you.
Colin
November 22, 2009 at 8:44 pm
I know you’ll be alright! Love you loads! xoxo
November 22, 2009 at 9:03 pm
Hey Davey, Wishing you all the luck possible from down here in Barnesville, Georgia! We love you!
November 22, 2009 at 10:41 pm
Davey,
I went through this same thing years ago. For me what gave me peace of mind was to be in the moment. When thoughts about it came up I reminded myself that, “Right now I am fine.” Instead of preparing myself to recieve bad news (which sends all kinds of junk to your body cells). The fear and upset comes from anticipated grief, in otherwords greiving something that doesn’t really exist in the moment. I also personally believe that you would feel different if you really had anything. Well you do have something, my love…I’m sending you some right now…and if they do find any treasure up there I call dibbs on any gold coins. heheee
Thom
November 23, 2009 at 1:25 am
Hi Davey,
I just went through a colonoscopy a few days ago to see what’s been up with me. I have to say that I am happier now that I got through with it because I am taking action in my life to better myself.
Stumbling on to your site has given me inspiration to become a better person every day. As I have been feeling empty for a long time, your words strengthen me to find my way again.
I hope that you carry on for a long time and that you keep on giving hope to so many!
M.
November 23, 2009 at 1:31 am
love and light XX
November 23, 2009 at 2:07 am
Hang in there … We need YOU ‘because’ We LOVE YOU!
November 23, 2009 at 2:38 am
I am not comfortable with the possibility of illness in the people for whom I have love. In stark contrast to my post from your last entry, I have suffered many losses in my relatively short life. I’m 34 and my mom died of cancer when she was my age. I’m glad to say that I’m much more ‘in the flow’ than I’ve ever been. The circumstances of my life are not critical. What I say about them and how I approach them are completely critical. Another one of my favourite bloggers, Charlie McDonnell (charlieissocoollike on YouTube), gave some great advice about blogging: Blog for others and not for yourself. Make every post a gift to the people you want to reach. Come what may, you are a true gift to me.
Agapé
November 23, 2009 at 5:51 am
You have a wonderful light inside you and you’re a wonderful example of some of the best energy I’ve ever encountered. I’m wishing you all the best with your health and that if it does turn out to be a difficult learning curve that your healing process will bring you joys as well as frustrations.
Wishing you all the best
-NT
November 23, 2009 at 7:02 am
I have been lurking around this site for a bit now, first time commenter!
I must say that don’t worry about it. Most likely it’s something else, it’s just a check just in case. And even if it is and it is in it’s early stages, it is curable.
Many times in lives we are faced with issues that may be life changing. However, I find it an excellent time to just take it as a period to reflect as to what you are thankful for. Sometimes, it serves as a wake up call to what many of us are taking for granted.
I came across this quote, said to by a father to his son.
“I wish you happiness and joy and I wish you peace. However, I also wish you sadness and despair, for then you will be able to enjoy the happiness that life brings you”
Humans are just built that way, we do not take enough time to appreciate what has been given to us. Only in times like this do we appreciate what we have.
I wish you all the luck in your diagnosis. Maybe you be healthy and continue to inspire people around the world
November 23, 2009 at 7:16 am
good luck davey!
November 23, 2009 at 7:19 am
deavy you are very hot and sexy
November 23, 2009 at 7:21 am
deavy you are very hot and sexy boy
November 23, 2009 at 7:30 am
Davey Wavey…When you find OUT what is right with you..hope you remember there is plenty of room for the both of us in my tub in Jerszzy like the last time..Love “your” David
November 23, 2009 at 7:36 am
As today is my 60th Birthday, yeah I am an old man, I just wanted to pass my best wishes on to you. Your wisdom and outlook have brightened many a soul in your short time in this phase of your journey. Keep doing what you are doing and you will be around for a long time!
November 23, 2009 at 7:38 am
The path to diagnosis often begins with a long list of the things you DON’T have.
Hoping for all the best on this journey. Thank you for taking us “blog buddies” along for the ride.
Much love,
Gary
November 23, 2009 at 7:41 am
DW-your attitude and approach to all this is so good-wishing you all the best.we are all so thinking about you.
November 23, 2009 at 8:06 am
My best wishes to you davey, I hope for the best in your visit to your doctor. I hope uts not colon cancer but if it is I’ll still stick with you ^^
November 23, 2009 at 8:17 am
hey deavy
you are generous , pretty,sweet ,kind good luck for you
yacine
November 23, 2009 at 8:42 am
Finding what is right with you? Read your own blog! You are only taking yourself along.
Best, Dave
November 23, 2009 at 9:13 am
Oh! Davey! Please remember to do one thing for yourself too. Never allow a lawyer to practice medicine, they’re not in the health-care profession.
If you want to ensure that your doctor has staff that isn’t overburdened with paperwork and bureaucratic non-sense, be sure to ask if a test can be redone.
If you’re unsure of the results, especially if you feel fit, healthy and good about your lifestyle that includes caring about yourself and others, you should take your own advice and make sure you don’t have any medical treatment done that ‘costs tens-to-hundreds of thousands’ that isn’t needed.
Lawyers are NOT doctors, so testing again if you’re unsure of the results saves you peace of mind.
Cheers!
(My grandfather always said – ‘Measure twice, cut once.’ – and watch the fingers.)
November 23, 2009 at 10:29 am
Dear Davey,
I know how you feel, the colonoscopy prep is kind of uncomfortable but we live through it, the test is easy since you’ll be asleep, and we all are praying that you do not have cancer, and God forbid you do, at your tender age and physical health a surgical remedy should take no time at all!
It might mess with your travel plans a little, but life is an adventure not a destination!
I love you Davey,
Joey
November 23, 2009 at 11:02 am
Our dear Davey,
It is obvious that you are loved by so many because you have touched each of us by sharing your thoughts. You know that many prayers are being offered to our God of Love. I am thankful that you are having the colonoscopy. If there is a problem, doctors and our prayers and love will get you through it. I am convinced that you will always be a witness to genuine love no matter what happens. As I think of how much I have grown to love you in the few weeks since I discovered your messages, I know that you will continue to bless others. One of my favourite hymns contains the words: In suffering love, the thread of life is wofen through our care, for God (Love) is with us; not alone wour pain and toil we bear…..In love’s deep womb our fears are held, there God’s rich tears are sown and brign to birth, inhope newborn, the strength to journeyon….In suffering love our God comes now, hope’s vision born in gloom, with tears and laughter shared and blessed the desert yet will bloom. (words by Rob Johns) You are surrounded by my love and the love of all your friends. Peace be yours. – Hugs,Kenneth
November 23, 2009 at 12:33 pm
Break a leg, davey
November 23, 2009 at 1:18 pm
Best wishes and much love, Davey. By the way, at my age I have colonoscopy every other year or so. It’s no big deal. I close my eyes and I’m out. What seems like a couple of seconds later I open my eyes and its over and there’s no paid, no discomfort, and no drama. Either your result will be negative, in which case no problem; or positive, in which case you will take the necessary steps to deal with the situation, and you will be fine. Hugs.
November 23, 2009 at 2:07 pm
I greatly admire you for having such a positive attitude.
November 23, 2009 at 2:41 pm
Davey, since you’re being so open with us about what’s happening with your tests and such, maybe you’d be willing to share what symptoms led to the discovery that you had a problem in the first place? It might be useful to know, in case some of us might have similar stuff going on, that we’re ignoring — or not giving as much attention to as we should. You are a light that illuminates many darkened corners…and a reflection of the power that one person can have in affecting others. Best thoughts your way, as always…
November 23, 2009 at 3:23 pm
Thanks for being so open about this part of your life as you are with the rest.
Having been though the same procedure, I know 1st hand how much a (sorry for pun) a pain in the a** this is but so worth it.
November 23, 2009 at 7:34 pm
You’re a sweet guy. Good Luck! Bon Chance et Meilleures Voeux!
November 23, 2009 at 9:32 pm
Good luck Davey!!
November 23, 2009 at 9:48 pm
U are right in the way to deal with medical problems is it is an adventure. That is what I have been telling all of the people that ask how to deal with organ transplants. I have had two a double lung and kidney. 13 yrs ago I looked at it as a adventure. all though not a treasure hunt.