I was betrayed by my butt. Okay, well not exactly.
I’ll spare you the details of my symptoms, but on Friday I realized that I needed some medical attention. Poking and prodding ensued, and a few diagnoses are being considered pending further testing. The most notable of these is colon cancer.
I know that in the larger picture of life, everything is exactly as it ought to be. Whatever it is, it’s a necessary step on my journey, be it colon cancer or anything else. And whatever I experience, it is because it’s necessary for me to evolve.
I have two hopes. My primary hope is that I’m able to become more conscious through this. My secondary hope is that the people in my life find the wisdom to palate that which they may find unpalatable.
As someone who is facing a potentially serious diagnosis, I have found great pleasure in observing the reactions of others when I declare that I’m not afraid to die. It’s a true statement; I’m not afraid to die. I’ve been saying it for years, though it was much less arousing when it seemed less likely. These reactions are reactions of ego and attachment, and I enjoy evoking them. Maybe they will shrivel up in the sunlight.
At any rate, I share this with you because you have become a part of my life. Telling you seemed like the natural next step. I owe it to you. This blog started as a journal, and this is now part of my silly little story.
And as I learn more in the upcoming weeks about my situation through further testing, I’ll share it with you.
I promise.
November 17, 2009 at 6:18 pm
Give Chipolte a lil hug from Big Jiggles
November 17, 2009 at 6:48 pm
I am proud of you and very happy for you. I think you are truly one of the greatests gifts in life. Everyday I remind myself “today is a good day to die”. It helps me to remember to always live in this moment. Death is as natural as life. I embrace it the same way. You have such an amazing and beautiful energy. You are a blessing by the universe … And so am I.
Love you, Davey.
November 17, 2009 at 7:27 pm
I agree with you Davey about death. It’s only natural. But I would rather have myself die than my relatives, lovers and friends. I love you and I hope this is a mere realization and that you won’t die.
November 17, 2009 at 10:16 pm
Dave, I understand your issues. I too went through the scare…unfortunatly in april of 2002 I was diagnosed with stage 2 colon cancer. I thought it was the end of the (well my) world. After surgery and many years of follow-up I can say that I have been cancer free for almost 8 years now.
My prayers are with you…and it will all be ok.
November 17, 2009 at 10:28 pm
In 2001, I had my first colonoscopy. The doctor removed a couple of polyps. I have had several colonoscopies since without any problem. Even if cancer is discovered, we know that cancer can never destroy love. Although I have only been reading your messages for about a month, it is obvious that you are loved by many. My love and prayers now embrace you constantly. We humans are still so ignorant of the power of the strengh of love.
November 17, 2009 at 10:46 pm
Hope that its normal wear and tear, 123 patch up and go.
I find Diagnoses are a lot like a police line up, in our mind sometimes we think its the ugliest one of the line, but compared with others, its often the less threatening one that really takes the cake.
November 17, 2009 at 10:56 pm
I hope the doctor says its not colon cancer. I hope you get well soon. thanks you for letting us know what is going on. Keep us posted.
November 17, 2009 at 11:52 pm
you’re in my thoughts and prayers!
November 18, 2009 at 12:04 am
Hello Gawjus,
I know just how you feel about all the uncertainty…I myself have just been diagnosed as having Parkinson’s Disease. Thank God it’s mild and not the shaky type that Michael J Fox has.
Aaaaanyway, what I’d like to say is that this pic of you is HOTTTT…from the beautiful butt to those luscious legs Hot, hot, hot!!!
Cheers.and hang in there, Davey.!
November 18, 2009 at 2:21 am
Dave, given the uncertainty of your situation, it’s best to stay fully present in the moment. You’re already doing this given what you share, so I’m confident you will handle matters involving diagnosis, treatment, and prognosis as they become known, from clarity, understanding, and above all – wisdom. You’re a patient in this event, but are also the ultimate healer. Stay centered in the light, affirming safe passage across all times and spaces of this experience, as healing begins to renew you.
November 18, 2009 at 2:58 am
Davey, I’ve only just begun to watch your videos on you tube, and have subscribed to your channel. I have mostly come out but my mom is in extream denial. Your you tubes make me smile and laugh and forget all about her. I hope and belive that you will be ok, to make someone els like me smile through their tough situation. Love always Arthur! P.s. You are soooo sexy, remember that(lol).
November 18, 2009 at 3:35 am
you know what Davey?
I’m just gonna keep on praying for you
and even though we are all here are technically strangers, you know that we LOVE you with our hearts
and i do have a wish for the future
and that will be meeting you someday
November 18, 2009 at 9:35 am
Davey, you have raised up so many! We hope that this alone will carry you through this opportunity.
Dave
November 18, 2009 at 9:49 am
Davey,
I must admit I came across your videos and blog with less than scrupulous intentions. But after following you regularly and hearing the depth of wisdom (which is seldom shared in our society) I grew a new and more profound respect for you.
Davey, you are beautiful inside and out and whether this colon issue is benign or not I want you to know with assurity and a clear conscious that you have reflected Love and made a difference to thousands of people in the process. I pray one day that I will get a chance to meet you but in the meantime, continue to be the change you want to see in the world and live fully.
Namaste,
Lloyd
November 18, 2009 at 10:47 am
Davey,
You truly are a great spirit and will continue to be so no matter what. Stay focused as you usually are.
November 18, 2009 at 12:12 pm
I hope you do get better and may you post progress with what you’re having. You see these comments? A lot of people are concerned about you and hopefully you do get better.
November 18, 2009 at 12:22 pm
Davy-
Sorry to hear about your possible diagnosis, I have been through a similar situation a couple of times and they always try to scare you by giving you the worst case possibilities, which more times than not, turns out not to be the case. keep your head up and try not to worry about it too much until you get the results, which I am sure wont be as bad as you think. Then you will be able to deal with it with a clear head and decide what to do from there. Good luck and keep us updated and remember, You have a lot of fans and friends out here that care for you and wish nothing but the best for you!
November 18, 2009 at 8:07 pm
that’s so sad
hope you’ll be alright..
November 18, 2009 at 9:57 pm
Dear Davey,
I am so sorry to read this news about your possible cancer. I really, really hope that it is not the case, Please, post the results of your tests to let us know that it isn’t cancer.
Whatever it might be, I pray that you come out better than ever, in the inside; as for your outside, how can it get any better?
I Love You, Davey,
Peter in New York
November 18, 2009 at 11:04 pm
You will be cured..
And live a long healthy life..
And you’ll soon be able to say..
“It’s all behind me now..”
November 18, 2009 at 11:44 pm
LOL. No one announces they may have a possible fatal condition without a confirmed diagnosis, well, except for you Davey Wavey. My deepest sympathies and wishes for a speedy recovery from a condition which you may have, but most probably don’t. I thought playing the victim card was beneath you, guess not.
November 19, 2009 at 12:48 am
Davey, just as we have become a part of your life, you have become a part of so many of our lives. When you share your thoughts we feel what you are feeling and I’m sure you are feeling our thoughts and prayers for you as you play the waiting game. Be strong, be YOU. Peace.
November 19, 2009 at 1:30 am
That’s pretty scary. I’m glad you are so optimistic in times like this. You are an amazing person and I wish you the best of luck. You will be in my prayers kiddo.
November 19, 2009 at 3:30 pm
I wish you well for future diagnosis and what ever the outcome I know you will handle it in your usual way with the universe. Being not affraid to die is a good thing I don’t know why other s don’t realise it that it is inevitabl however, one does not want it premeturaly, one would hop to live life to the fullest and to the longest tie possible. It is not our doing.
Good luck – my usual parting message ‘Be Safe’ si still relevant so
Be Safe
November 20, 2009 at 5:43 am
Davey,
good luck and good health to you. You are inspiring, insightful, interesting and bring a smile or a thought (and sometimes both..and by sometimes i mean always) every time i read up on you.
You’re positivity, humour and honesty (and ok pics and pecs) are appreciated by all those around you
November 20, 2009 at 1:10 pm
Sending you positive thoughts and energy from South Africa. Your blog guided me through a very lonely time in my life, may you continue to share your wisdom and understanding with us for years to come.
Trust the news will be good
November 20, 2009 at 6:14 pm
Hey!!
I have been on and off to your webly universe for quite some time now, and was really surprised and shocked to find that you may have a diagnose that can be a bit “tricky” to deal with…. Several years ago I found myself dealing with not a disease but with thoughts and insights to the what’s, how’s and why’s of this world!!
Just would like to share with you that I think every growth within the human body is an attemt to grow…spiritually or physically…and if you want to grow and can’t quite find the way to do so, in time you will reflect these thoughts as faithfully as any other thought…if you don’t find an outlet for this outside of your body, you will find one within….and now I’m thinking of within your physical body…the real within is another thing…:-)As I’m sure you know, you create your reality through your thoughts, feelings and expectations, so it’s quite pertinent to pay attention to what you think and how you think it….! Don’t now if this made sense, but anyhoo…hehe If you want to exchange thought…mail me!
November 21, 2009 at 8:03 pm
Please know that you’re in my prayers and, clearly, in the prayers of many many others. Let us know.
November 23, 2009 at 9:09 am
I began having some frightening symptoms in the same area a few years ago. My grandfather died of colon cancer and my father had many polyps removed before he died from PAD. I ran to the doctor for the full gamut of testing including a colonoscopy. It turned out to be an inflamed hemorrhoid. Three benign polyps were found inside, too, but they weren’t causing the problem. All four things were removed without incident. Whew!
Now I know I have the same issues in this area as my forefathers and I am committed to paying attention to potential problems so I don’t suffer the same fate as mu grandfather.
December 3, 2009 at 3:40 am
Joe Blfstyk: Davey is-Not “playing the victim card!” He has simply stated what the doctor has said it “might-be.” … … But, i thank God
that Davey’s most-recent update to all-of-us is that “he is cancer-free 
!” Peace & Love to Davey, you, Joe and everyone-else here. _ _ davvi
December 3, 2009 at 3:58 am
Joe Blfstyk: Davey is-Not “playing the victim card!” He has simply stated what the doctor has said it “might-be.” … … But, i thank God
that Davey’s most-recent update to all-of-us is that “he is cancer-free 
!” And Davey, i echo Michael as he states that you have become as much a part of our life as we’ve become a part of yours, and we-All thank-you for-this and Everything you do for-us, Davey 
! Peace & Love to Davey, you, Joe and everyone-else here. _ _ davvi
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